Pressing on

The IUI didn't work.  It's been a REALLY tough morning, and I'm angry, but what am I going to do about it.  This is the process and we knew that going into it, but that doesn't make it any easier.  It's also a little frustrating that they didn't say "well this is where we go from here"  they just left it at "I'm sorry it was negative". But Jeff and I have decided that we are just going to wait until after the first of the year to do another one.  It's hard on us with the emotions and stress and everything so we need that time. 
I have such an amazing husband!  This is tough on both of us, yet he continues to be the strong one!   He loves on me and knows without me saying so that it's all I want. He puts a smile on my face and makes me laugh even when I just want to cry.  He is truely a blessing from God and I thank God for him each and every day and never take a day with him for granted. There is no way I'm ever going to be able to explain or put into words my feelings for him and how much I truely love him!
I have an amazing family who has been so good about making sure that I am ok and that I'm not stressed and have been my "buffers" and I appreciate that. I have great friends who have kept me in their prayers constantly, and I couldn't ask for more than that.  I am blessed and God shows me daily all of the blessings in my life.  I get to be the favorite aunt to my amazing nieces and nephews who teach me new lessons every day and help keep a smile on my face. 
So we are just going to try and relax and look forward to the holidays with family and then start again after the first of the year. 

Progesterone

I went and had my progesterone checked yesterday since that is something that I am having to do daily.  They called and said that they want the levels to be at 20 or above and mine is 62. So they said that is really good and that if I am pregnant that is a good level to be at to keep the baby safe and healthy until my body takes over.  But I still have to do the daily progesterone. 
So anyway, I go back on Monday to do a blood pregnancy test.  I am trying not to get my hopes up too high, but it's really hard with everything that's going on.  I haven't really been thinking about everything too much until yesterday and now it seems that's all that I think about.  So we shall see!!!