Sadness

Well we found out today that we had a miscarriage.  Honestly, I'm not really sure what to think right now.  It's a lot of up's and down's and an overall rough day.  I sit here and cry because it's something we have strived for so long to accomplish and once we accomplished it we lost it.  We didn't even know that we were pregnant and weren't far enough along to have to have a D&C so that's a positive..I'm glad I didn't know that I was pregnant before the miscarriage.  The light in all of this is that now we know that we can get pregnant it's just a matter of staying pregnant. 

I also just found out that a friend of mine who's little boy has been struggling for a while passed away.  This lady has been a true blessing to me and has been one of the few individuals (in town) who actually knows what I have been through with all of the infertility struggles.  My heart hurts for her and her family and I pray that the Lord covers them in his love and I pray for healing for their family.

Through all of this it's hard to see God's plan for everything and know that everything happens according to his plan.   But I also KNOW that he has a plan for everything and that it will all work out for His good. While typing this I have been listening to my Itunes and just realized that the song Let The Waters Rise by Mikeschair has been repeating for some reason.    We are going to be fine, and we are going to get through this, but not without facing the storms in life and walking through the valley's first.