Amazing!!!

*****WARNING*****

I am pregnant and this is a sappy blog post!!

This is my best friend and the man of my dreams!!!!

He makes me laugh and smile even when I don't feel like it, and I can be as crazy and stupid as I want around him and he loves me regardless.  I had someone ask me the other day how we stay friends aside from being husband and wife, and I honestly didn't know how to answer that because I don't feel like I have to work at being friends with him, he's just my best friend!!  But the answer I gave was that we make time for each other, we make sure that we set aside time that it's just us and no one else; we laugh with (and at) each other A LOT!   I did tell this person that the one thing that probably changed our relationship and made us closer was moving away.  When we moved to Colorado we didn't know anyone, but it was by far the best thing for us and for our relationship.  We made some AMAZING friends while we lived there, and honestly miss living there, but for a while it was just us and that was a good thing because we grew a lot as a couple.  Now, after 8 long years we are going to be bringing a child into the mix.  Poor kid is going to be embarrassed by his parents a lot!!  I saw something the other day that I loved and it said "I never knew how much I loved your father until I saw how much he loved you".   Jeff has been the most amazing husband through this whole thing....the ups and downs of trying to get pregnant and it not working, miscarriage, and finally getting pregnant.  I know I have told some of you how frustrating it can be sometimes because he wants to do everything for me and is very cautious of everything I do...this only frustrates me because I am such an independent person.  But honestly I couldn't ask for a more loving and affectionate husband through all of this.  I absolutely love the fact that every night Jeff prays for us as a family and for Liam as he's growing; he talks to Liam every night before we go to bed and every morning before he goes to work and tells Liam how much he loves him and is so excited for him to be here so we can see him and hold him; he will put his ear to my belly and listen...most of the time Liam kicks and Jeff will get kicked in the face, but Jeff talks to him like he's right here out in the world with us.  I LOVE IT!!!! 
So I know that this has been sappy and I'm ok with that.  I tell Jeff I love him a lot and I have no doubt that he knows that I love him, this is just one way that I wanted to share with you all how blessed I am to have such a loving and caring spouse. 

P.S.  WE HAVE 3 MONTHS AND 17 DAYS UNTIL WE GET TO MEET THIS LITTLE SHY GUY

and apparently he is not going to be a "little" guy because they said he is already tipping the charts with where he should be weight wise and he has really long legs.....but his mommy has long legs and was a 10lb baby so I'm not sure what I was expecting :)   I'M SO READY FOR HIM TO BE HERE!!!!!!

Baby Carr

We got to see the baby today!!  It was a very emotional time, but we...along with Dr. Burley...were very excited about it!!  Here is a picture:

We are very very excited, and it was amazing to see the baby moving and spinning and I can't feel a thing!!!  We have our next appointment in 4 weeks and 2 weeks after that we will find out if baby Carr is a boy or a girl....YAY!!!!

On Saturday I will be officially out of my 1st trimester and we are so blessed that God has brought us to this point.  I have found myself not worrying about the baby very much because from the very beginning we decided that we are putting this child in God's hands and that no matter what happens that it's all in God's plan.  We are beyond blessed by the amount of people who have been and are continuing to pray for us. 

9 weeks

When I type 9 weeks it doesn't seem like that long, and I can honestly say that aside from a couple of obvious symptoms I don't really feel pregnant.  But I am not fitting into my regular pants anymore and there is a bump there that hasn't always been there.  It's not huge, but it's noticable and after I eat it's a LOT bigger, but I took the following picture this morning before eating or drinking anything.

I have gained a little bit of weight, but nothing serious.  I have found that I am having serious issues with seeing myself gain weight.  Not in a bad way because I'm very excited about being pregnant and I know that's the reason that I'm gaining weight, but I feel like I've done very well with keeping myself at a decent weight and in shape and expecially on the days that I don't feel pregnant I find myself starting to get upset about gaining weight.  I don't need lectures about how healthy it is to gain weight during pregnancy or how it's concerning that I don't like gaining weight.  I'm eating and gaining weight and I'm not doing anything that's unhealthy or crazy.  I'm just a little obsessive about being in shape.
Anyways, other than that there hasn't been much going on.  I've been traveling for work and will be traveling again over the next couple of weeks.  I'm guessing I should become pretty familiar with the town of Austin, TX since it seems I will be there a lot!  We have our next appointment on May 16th and that will be our 12 week appointment which puts me at the end of the first trimester.  They said that the doctor will do a doppler to hear the heartbeat and that the only way she would do an ultrasound is if she can't hear the heartbeat.  I'm really anxious for this appointment because we only got to see the heartbeat last time and that's been several weeks ago and it's so hard not knowing for sure that everythings fine.  We know 100% that God is going to take care of us either way....I just like to have some reassurance every once in a while. 

Heartbeat!!!

We got to see the heart beating on an ultrasound on Wednesday!!  It really was a huge relief and blessing at the same time.  We had an ultrasound last week and they couldn't find the "fetal pole" aka baby, and we were both a little worried.  But everything went well this week and they found the baby and saw the heart beat flickering on the screen which was AMAZING!!!!  I'm a little bit more excited now, I just wish that we could fast forward now to finding out what we are having....Jeff says it's a girl.   My blood levels were GREAT!! My progesterone levels are good and they aren't concerned about that, but I do have to continue with the progesterone until I'm 12 weeks.  Our next appointment will be at the actual doctor's office and is scheduled for the 17th.  I am still fighting the all day nausea, but I am forcing myself to eat.  The nurse from my doctor's office called in a prescription for me if I want it, but I've decided that I don't really want to take any medicine right now.  I'm sure it's ok and I know that tons of pregnant ladies have taken it before, but I'm just a little nervous about taking medication and want to just deal with it as long as I can.  We are all so excited and cannot wait to find out what we are having so we can do some shopping :)

Bloodwork

Everything came good.  They wanted my numbers to be at 4430 and they were actually 4459.  They did say something about possibly doing bloodwork once a week for a while (UGH!)  and for sure doing bloodwork on Wednesday and that as soon as my numbers are at 10,000 that we can do an ultrasound and hear the heartbeat.  I'm really excited about that!!!  I also have a prescription for progesteron that I have to continue until I'm 12 weeks.  It's still all a little surreal and I still forget sometimes that I'm actually pregnant!!  But Jeff never forgets and in fact he talks to my stomach every morning before he leaves for work and every night after we pray.  He is really excited, but really nervous!!  Thanks for the prayers and please keep them coming that everything remains on track and healthy!

GOOD NEWS!!!

WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   This new has been very very exciting, but I'm not going to lie, we have both been very nervous over the past couple of days.   Jeff is being overly protective.....which is actually really funny and sometimes it makes me want to scream but it ALWAYS makes me thankful that I have a spouse that loves me so much that he is excited and wants to be so involved in everything and making sure that I am taking care of myself and our little orange seed (we found out that's what size it is right now).  I called and scheduled an appointment with my doctor and they didn't say anything about doing a blood test or anything to make sure that my progesterone levels are high enough.  Given everything we've been through I wanted to make sure that it was all ok so I had to call and ask them to do it just to give me peace....but I don't know if that helped because then the nurse said "yeah we can do that because it will tell us if the pregnancy is actually progressing or if it's an ectopic or if somethings wrong"   SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!  Like I'm not already freaking out about every little twinge and pain and now you give me something else to sit here and worry about until possibly Friday afternoon.   UGH!!!!  
Jeff and I have said from that this baby is a blessing and that God is in control of everything and that good or bad we will praise him!!  So all of this to say that we could really use prayers for peace over the next couple of days.  I don't want to be worrying, but it's natural and I know that I will. 

Healing

We went to the Rock and Worship Roadshow on Saturday night and it was SOO good!!!!  All of the music was awesome and while I think that Tenth Avenue North was by far the best group that played, MercyMe's new song is the one that was more of a blessing to me than I think most people could understand.  Their new song is called The Hurt & The Healer.  I just sat and listened to the song because it describes so much for so many people, but for me it describes a lot about getting past the hurting part of realizing that I may never be able to have my own biological child, but knowing that I will get to have a child that I can call my own at some point.  I can't do the song justice by talking about it so I've posted a video below to share.